but i will say, despite my situation, i have some thanks to give...and apologies...

first of all, i want to say thank you to msbenefit  for giving such kind words to me earlier this evening that i seriously had to take a moment...it meant a lot to me...i thank you very much for that...i really do...

i'd also like to thank longwayhome  for being there when i need to bitch endlessly about all of this mess...you guys think you get an ear-ful, this guy has some details...some lengthy lengthy details...but just having someone there to listen, well, it's redemptive...

and finally, i'd like to thank both laserina  and divine  for checking up on me when i was away from mindsay...that was an amazing thing to do...

you guys, never consider anything too small...afterall, it's the small things that move mountains, right?  sometimes it takes what seems like nothing to slap the sense into a person, or to let them know they're not alone...it's a great thing to see in people...and i apologize for being away for so long, not just from mindsay, but also from aim...from emailing...any and all of that contact we had...i'm sorry...

this sounds like i'm famous, i'm not, these are just really great friends i've come to meet over the years and while they may live hundreds, even thousands of miles away, i feel close...the thought of the endless amount of care and concern, comfort and encouragment they have give seriously brings me to tears...but shh...don't tell anyone, i have a reputation to keep...*ahem fight club ahem*... 

all this mushy bullshit is wearing me out...you guys mean a lot to me, just know that...